I nearly sold my soul to my degree

Guess who’s back 😉

It’s been a while…maybe a bit more of a while; but exams hit me like a bulldozer through a brick wall.

Final year has hit me pretty hard. As it does to many.

As my life hangs in the balance of the grades to be announced, for the first time in a long time, I have time to kick back and relax. (Well as much as anyone who is unreasonably expected to have their life sorted pending their graduation date would).

Trying to work out where my mojo vanished to has been baffling me for weeks. It may sound cliche, but I have recently been experiencing a sense of unease and lack of inspiration. Going back and forth between university and home hardly serves as the most exhilarating journey of all time.

It is not until this light bulb moment right here that it has dawned on me, that being so entirely engrossed in academic reading and writing has hindered my opportunity to enjoy anything else. I had nearly lost myself in required reading and past paper questions. That is not to say that academic reading is boring. Parts of it is interesting. But, heavily  reading academia for academic purposes does not do much for the creative flow.

To redeem by mojo back I went out for some drinks, have been divulging myself in my pile of unread magazines and plan to start reading again; open up my imaginative mind. Alongside my creativity, my faith took a bit of slippery-slope-slip as well. Not to say I had lost it, I still prayed, went to church, and continued to believe that God would guide me through this treacherous journey they call a law degree. But what I had lost was my desire to seek God, my desire to continuing building our relationship, my desire to get closer. Our conversation often didn’t get much richer than thank you, tomorrow is a new day, help me to work harder, do well.

Some people can bounce straight back up and into their mojo again, but if you’re struggling, consider revisiting a favourite spot, an old hobby or trying something new. Anything to get your spirit back into top gear. Getting my religious spirit back into gear might take some time. To be honest, I believe you always have to be working on it, to remain in high spirits. However, I do believe that a slip in inspiration requires some intervention. Therefore, I’ve been looking for sermons that speak to me directly; so I can literally feel God’s presence.

If you are time management king or queen, do not lost that skill. However, most of us are still learning.  Just make sure you do not lose yourself, lose your soul, in the aspiration of achieving one goal.

Matthew 16:26: “For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world and forfeits his soul. Or what shall a man give in exchange for his soul?”

We have thousands of goals but only one soul to protect, one soul to help us, one soul to save us.

Hopefully our efforts will be fruitful and we can get back to our vivacious selves. Being inspired to inspire.

Ta ta for now x

 

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The Struggle is ONLY Temporary

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I’m back and I’m better!

Am I still allowed to say that? Or is Bryson too 2016?

Anywhoms, I’m back after a very testing period of this university lifestyle. And following my ‘stress is not my portion‘ post I thought, it was only fair to share my stressful moment too; because I’m not out here picking daises and chilling, life is trying it with me too!

Approximately a week ago, dooms-day arrived i.e. Dissertation deadline day. For the last 5 days before my deadline, I was looking like Krusty the clown featuring Nanny McPhee. In the library all hours. Shifts ending while the birds were chirping. No word of a lie, I didn’t necessarily know what day of the week it was, I just knew that my deadline was Xdays and Xhours away. The only thing that was keeping me going was the fact that, I knew in Xdays and Xhours it was going to be over.

During times of struggle, whether that may be financially, emotionally or physically, a reminder that your struggle is only temporary is the most important reminder of them all! For example, we all know about the struggle before the ‘student loan drop’, we know the struggle is only temporary because our bank accounts will be well-endowed soon.

In some areas of life, this is not as easy a concept to master by simply speaking the positivity into existence. Deeper struggles like debt, a broken relationship or loss of a loved one don’t feel like temporary struggles. As long as you are on earth the struggle may remain, and may only get easier, but it is about finding peace in knowing that it does get better.

How do you find peace? You can find peace in prayer or reflection. Focusing on the trials and tribulations you’ve overcome, the good things you enjoy and the great things that are to come.

So, to round it off, whatever your struggle may be, remember that it is only temporary, it will get better (as long as you work on it, because there are not any fairy godmothers granting you wishes out here) and find peace to keep striving through your struggle.

2 Corinthians 4:17 (ESV)

For this light momentary affliction is preparing us for an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison

2 Corinthians 4:17 (NLT)

For our present troubles are small and won’t last very long. Yet they produce for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever!

Remember…you are destined for greatness.

Sayonara 2016!

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2016. What a year. Frank Ocean finally released new music…wasn’t worth the wait in my opinion. Solange came through though! (go on girl with your bad self!) There was no such thing as fashion without a choker. 14 million people tuned in to see the last episode of The Great British Bake Off aired on the BBC. Rio hosted the Olympics…honestly, who even remembers that?

2 major things I think everyone learnt (or relearnt) this year:

1.Nothing is promised. Therefore, you cannot afford to hold your future or prosperity in the hands of anything or anyone. 

How many of us thought that the UK would actually end up leaving the EU? Seriously?! Many of us thought it was some kind of egotistic, political barney that would eventually blow over. Some of us made an informed vote. Others voted blindly. Better still, following the disastrous result, David Cameron decided it was all a bit overwhelming, and resigned to his comfy £1,000,000+ farmhouse in Witney! I’m not even going to delve into American politics, I don’t think I have quite come to terms with that one. My point is, a lot of us didn’t think that the unexpected would become our reality. No one has the power to control everything, and ultimately the future isn’t 100% in our hands, but where we can steer our boats in the right direction, we better start steering.

With all the opportunity to grow, thrive and fulfil your dreams, take your future into your hands. Granted, the competition is rife; but it’s up to you to grab the bull [of life] by its horns. If they don’t want to give you a job, create your own. Nobody wants to teach you, teach yourself. Society is developing so quickly that the conventional isn’t so conventional anymore. 2017 is your year, make it a year that no one will ever forget, was destined for you.

On that note, the biggest lesson, teaching, motto of them all:

2.God’s timing is the best timing. (Wait your turn).

In a world where everyone’s story is so accessible through social media and the good old printed press, there is an unprecedented rush to get to ‘where you’re supposed to be.’ It is so easy to doubt your journey. Social media is fantastic, it allows you to learn from others and be inspired; but your path is not the same as A, B, C. As always, the grass looks greener on the other side. The light looks 10x brighter at the end of the tunnel. There’s a rush to make it to the other side ASAP; but life is a journey, so we should enjoy our journey. Enjoy the moment while it lasts; while you’re in it. Your time is coming; and when it does come you will have been so engrossed in the present moment that it will taste even sweeter because you weren’t sitting and anticipating for your turn. So whether it is the graduate scheme you have been waiting on. Those subscribers that haven’t hit that subscribe button. Or the husband you have been waiting for. It is coming; if not, there are better and greater things on the horizon for you. You can never rewind the clock and you only get one life so, trust in, and enjoy your journey.

Isaiah 40:31 – But they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength, they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.

On that note, 2016 has most definitely been the year of “realizing stuff”. Reflection is a major key, so reflect on the good and the bad of the year. Leave all anguish, regrets and bitterness behind; and bring with you happiness, prosperity, new energy and love!

Sayonara 2016! Hello 2017!

Christmas killed by Commercialism

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So it has just hit December and Christmas is upon us. The year goes by so quickly these days, it’s actually insane. Although it is December and the world’s most anticipated holiday is around the corner, I feel no Christmas spirit whatsoever. I feel like commercialism has killed the essence of Christmas.

Definition of commercialism: emphasis on the maximising of profit.

Over the years Christmas has just become another advertising gimmick and a time of consumer exploitation for retailers. Once upon time I knew Christmas to be a time where nobody went to work and all the shops were closed. Everyone went to church (and the lazy ones stayed at home). Then everyone spent the rest of the day at someone’s house, eating too much, drinking too much and making noise. The adults would indulge in family gossip and the children would play games, watch tv, you know, do what kids do. It pretty much never snows (in the UK anyway), but that was minor.

Okay, so with the growth of business, advertising did take advantage of the holidays. Shops were heavily decorated. Everywhere you looked it was about christmas trees, tinsel, turkey and roast potatoes. It was corny, but it was cute; and it made you feel kind of Christmasy.

Now the commercial business world seems to have taken a stab at the Christmas holidays. You don’t really see the heavy decorations anymore, its more of a minimalistic approach. Big business’ no longer care about celebrating Christmas. There is no community Christmas spirit. Instead it’s just another opportunity to push for sales to consumers who just buy for the sake of Christmas deals. Okay there’s the few who do actually buy  Christmas gifts, and then there’s the majority, who are just out there for a bargain at the mercy of pitiful Christmas marketing. It’s become so sad that Christmas deals are not even targeted at ‘present buyers’; they’re just targeted at anyone who wants to buy something at a discounted price.

Fair-enough, we live in multi-cultural, multi-faith country, where some people do not celebrate Christmas. I thought the UK was a Christian (Protestant) state that celebrated Christmas.  A state that made the 25th December a public holiday because it is an important date in the Christian calendar. (The UK actually being Christian is a debatable argument at this moment in time). But hey ho, what do I know.

Anyway, in a time where we are constantly bombarded by discounts and deals, I can assure you, Christmas will not be the only time you’ll get a discount people. Take time. Don’t lose yourself in consumerism this Christmas. If you’re buying your family gifts, don’t forget it’s the thought that counts, sometimes sentimental gifts go further than the price tag. If you’re like me and you’ve lost your Christmas spirit, find it lol.

Christmas is about the celebration of the long-awaited arrival of Christ. Look forward to spending this holiday to get closer to God, your family and friends; and bringing happiness, hope and love to others the way Jesus did.

2 Peter 1:4 – “By which he has granted to us his precious and exceedingly great promises; that through these you may become partakers of the divine nature, having escaped from the corruption that is in the world by lust.

Remind someone what Christmas is about. You don’t have to tell them show them. And as always, remember you’re destined for greatness, don’t let the bogus marketing hold your bank account back from prosperity in 2017.