I nearly sold my soul to my degree

Guess who’s back 😉

It’s been a while…maybe a bit more of a while; but exams hit me like a bulldozer through a brick wall.

Final year has hit me pretty hard. As it does to many.

As my life hangs in the balance of the grades to be announced, for the first time in a long time, I have time to kick back and relax. (Well as much as anyone who is unreasonably expected to have their life sorted pending their graduation date would).

Trying to work out where my mojo vanished to has been baffling me for weeks. It may sound cliche, but I have recently been experiencing a sense of unease and lack of inspiration. Going back and forth between university and home hardly serves as the most exhilarating journey of all time.

It is not until this light bulb moment right here that it has dawned on me, that being so entirely engrossed in academic reading and writing has hindered my opportunity to enjoy anything else. I had nearly lost myself in required reading and past paper questions. That is not to say that academic reading is boring. Parts of it is interesting. But, heavily  reading academia for academic purposes does not do much for the creative flow.

To redeem by mojo back I went out for some drinks, have been divulging myself in my pile of unread magazines and plan to start reading again; open up my imaginative mind. Alongside my creativity, my faith took a bit of slippery-slope-slip as well. Not to say I had lost it, I still prayed, went to church, and continued to believe that God would guide me through this treacherous journey they call a law degree. But what I had lost was my desire to seek God, my desire to continuing building our relationship, my desire to get closer. Our conversation often didn’t get much richer than thank you, tomorrow is a new day, help me to work harder, do well.

Some people can bounce straight back up and into their mojo again, but if you’re struggling, consider revisiting a favourite spot, an old hobby or trying something new. Anything to get your spirit back into top gear. Getting my religious spirit back into gear might take some time. To be honest, I believe you always have to be working on it, to remain in high spirits. However, I do believe that a slip in inspiration requires some intervention. Therefore, I’ve been looking for sermons that speak to me directly; so I can literally feel God’s presence.

If you are time management king or queen, do not lost that skill. However, most of us are still learning.  Just make sure you do not lose yourself, lose your soul, in the aspiration of achieving one goal.

Matthew 16:26: “For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world and forfeits his soul. Or what shall a man give in exchange for his soul?”

We have thousands of goals but only one soul to protect, one soul to help us, one soul to save us.

Hopefully our efforts will be fruitful and we can get back to our vivacious selves. Being inspired to inspire.

Ta ta for now x

 

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Be your first Valentine

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Hey guys,

Happy Valentines Day, weekend, week, month…whatever for whenever you’re reading this lol.

St. Valentine’s day is recognised as a day of love, devotion and romance. Since the mid 18th century the commercialisation of Valentine’s Day has grown; with it being the second largest seasonal card sending time of the year. Aside from the card writing, gift giving and love making, Valentine’s Day is the perfect time to show yourself some love.

First and foremost, if you don’t love yourself, you cannot love somebody else. Why, because you cannot give someone else something that you don’t have.

Secondly, loving yourself is your power.

To truly love yourself allows for true happiness. Internal happiness comes from loving yourself for who you are, the perks, and the not so pretty. When you love yourself, there is no one that can take that away from you. If you are internally happy, although external factors may attempt to diminish this happiness, no one can take away happiness that comes from within you, apart from you – this is part of your power!

No one really teaches you how to love yourself. I  truly started to love myself when I came to university. A time when I vowed to uphold myself highly. Partly because I didn’t want to get lost in the sauce of university ‘demons’, but also, because I wanted what I saw in other people. I wanted to have a strong sense of identity and self-confidence; these were (and are) things that I admired in the character of others.

To have a strong sense of identity requires spending time with yourself, knowing what makes you happy, excited, sad or angry. You can only be confident in something that you know well, something you have worked on, something that you trust. You’re not going to be confident on stage performing a routine you haven’t spent time on. Similarly, you are not going to be confident in yourself, if you do not spend time on building yourself, your character and set yourself up for achieving your goals (sometimes even working out what those goals actually are).

Self identity and confidence are part in parcel with loving yourself. Sometimes, it is easier said than done; especially where your ‘flaws’ lie. (I put flaws in inverted commas because your flaws may be another persons wish). Nevertheless, self-love is a journey worth taking.

My top tips for self-love: Self-affirmation, celebrating your successes and ‘me-time’

  • Self-affirmation – Tell yourself you love yourself. In the mirror. Before you go to bed. When you wake up. Speak self-love into your heart, mind and soul.
  • Celebrate your successes – not everyone sees your successes, especially the small ones. When you do something good, even if it is simply an extra 10 sit-ups at the gym, tell yourself well done. It feels good when someone else congratulates you, so congratulate yourself.
  • ‘Me-time’ – You cannot love someone you don’t know. Set aside time to spend away from social media. I specify social media because it is the nest of comparison. Comparing your pictures to an american ‘instagram baddie’ is not going to make you feel better. Nor is comparing your twitter feed to the guy tweeting about his new balenciagas, new Audi and the ‘babe’ he’s taking to the Shard for dinner. (Don’t forget that people mostly share their highlights, what they want you to see.) Aside from that, read a book, listen to music, even look through old photos – old photo’s, snapchats and video’s are the best.

When you love yourself, not cockinesses, but confidence beams from you. People can see that you ‘know your sauce’ (know yourself, know your worth). You’ll radiate love and happiness because that is what is within you.

So today, I want you to do a little something for yourself. Once you’ve done that little something, in the spirit of giving, show a little love to someone else.

For my believers: You are “fearfully and wonderfully made” (Psalm 139: 14) in God’s image. God took his time designing you just the way you are. As you are made in His image, if you truthfully love God (first commandment – Love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind” – Matthew 22:38) you should love yourself. It is only then, that you can ‘love your neighbour as you love yourself.’ (Matthew 22:39). Remember you cannot love someone who you do not know, put time aside to spend with God daily; in this time you grow love for yourself, God and others.

Be your first Valentine. It may sound selfish, but if you’re not good, you cannot make anyone else better. If you don’t truly love yourself, you cannot truly give love to anyone else.

Peace & Love

x

The Struggle is ONLY Temporary

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I’m back and I’m better!

Am I still allowed to say that? Or is Bryson too 2016?

Anywhoms, I’m back after a very testing period of this university lifestyle. And following my ‘stress is not my portion‘ post I thought, it was only fair to share my stressful moment too; because I’m not out here picking daises and chilling, life is trying it with me too!

Approximately a week ago, dooms-day arrived i.e. Dissertation deadline day. For the last 5 days before my deadline, I was looking like Krusty the clown featuring Nanny McPhee. In the library all hours. Shifts ending while the birds were chirping. No word of a lie, I didn’t necessarily know what day of the week it was, I just knew that my deadline was Xdays and Xhours away. The only thing that was keeping me going was the fact that, I knew in Xdays and Xhours it was going to be over.

During times of struggle, whether that may be financially, emotionally or physically, a reminder that your struggle is only temporary is the most important reminder of them all! For example, we all know about the struggle before the ‘student loan drop’, we know the struggle is only temporary because our bank accounts will be well-endowed soon.

In some areas of life, this is not as easy a concept to master by simply speaking the positivity into existence. Deeper struggles like debt, a broken relationship or loss of a loved one don’t feel like temporary struggles. As long as you are on earth the struggle may remain, and may only get easier, but it is about finding peace in knowing that it does get better.

How do you find peace? You can find peace in prayer or reflection. Focusing on the trials and tribulations you’ve overcome, the good things you enjoy and the great things that are to come.

So, to round it off, whatever your struggle may be, remember that it is only temporary, it will get better (as long as you work on it, because there are not any fairy godmothers granting you wishes out here) and find peace to keep striving through your struggle.

2 Corinthians 4:17 (ESV)

For this light momentary affliction is preparing us for an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison

2 Corinthians 4:17 (NLT)

For our present troubles are small and won’t last very long. Yet they produce for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever!

Remember…you are destined for greatness.

Sayonara 2016!

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2016. What a year. Frank Ocean finally released new music…wasn’t worth the wait in my opinion. Solange came through though! (go on girl with your bad self!) There was no such thing as fashion without a choker. 14 million people tuned in to see the last episode of The Great British Bake Off aired on the BBC. Rio hosted the Olympics…honestly, who even remembers that?

2 major things I think everyone learnt (or relearnt) this year:

1.Nothing is promised. Therefore, you cannot afford to hold your future or prosperity in the hands of anything or anyone. 

How many of us thought that the UK would actually end up leaving the EU? Seriously?! Many of us thought it was some kind of egotistic, political barney that would eventually blow over. Some of us made an informed vote. Others voted blindly. Better still, following the disastrous result, David Cameron decided it was all a bit overwhelming, and resigned to his comfy £1,000,000+ farmhouse in Witney! I’m not even going to delve into American politics, I don’t think I have quite come to terms with that one. My point is, a lot of us didn’t think that the unexpected would become our reality. No one has the power to control everything, and ultimately the future isn’t 100% in our hands, but where we can steer our boats in the right direction, we better start steering.

With all the opportunity to grow, thrive and fulfil your dreams, take your future into your hands. Granted, the competition is rife; but it’s up to you to grab the bull [of life] by its horns. If they don’t want to give you a job, create your own. Nobody wants to teach you, teach yourself. Society is developing so quickly that the conventional isn’t so conventional anymore. 2017 is your year, make it a year that no one will ever forget, was destined for you.

On that note, the biggest lesson, teaching, motto of them all:

2.God’s timing is the best timing. (Wait your turn).

In a world where everyone’s story is so accessible through social media and the good old printed press, there is an unprecedented rush to get to ‘where you’re supposed to be.’ It is so easy to doubt your journey. Social media is fantastic, it allows you to learn from others and be inspired; but your path is not the same as A, B, C. As always, the grass looks greener on the other side. The light looks 10x brighter at the end of the tunnel. There’s a rush to make it to the other side ASAP; but life is a journey, so we should enjoy our journey. Enjoy the moment while it lasts; while you’re in it. Your time is coming; and when it does come you will have been so engrossed in the present moment that it will taste even sweeter because you weren’t sitting and anticipating for your turn. So whether it is the graduate scheme you have been waiting on. Those subscribers that haven’t hit that subscribe button. Or the husband you have been waiting for. It is coming; if not, there are better and greater things on the horizon for you. You can never rewind the clock and you only get one life so, trust in, and enjoy your journey.

Isaiah 40:31 – But they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength, they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.

On that note, 2016 has most definitely been the year of “realizing stuff”. Reflection is a major key, so reflect on the good and the bad of the year. Leave all anguish, regrets and bitterness behind; and bring with you happiness, prosperity, new energy and love!

Sayonara 2016! Hello 2017!